Living out loud: juggling life and writing
Earlier this week I sent my five-year-old grandson in Invercargill his winter jacket, it’s a little further south than here, so the seasons arrive a little later, well that is my excuse, I wrote on the attached card.
He sent me an email back, ‘Thanks Grandma, but I’m a size seven now.’
In between everyday life I have been reading the Paris Review online and the writer interviews, and I copy a quote every so often, and paste and highlight in bold for inspiration. James Baldwin, Nina Simone, Richard Wright, they all spent time in Paris, even Faulkner, and Joyce, and Beckett, Proust is a native, that doesn’t count. I am going to Paris, because Nina Simone was there, and her music inspires me.
‘It takes me forever to get it to sing. I work at the language.’ Maya Angelou on writing.
‘I look at some of the great novelists, and I think the reason they are great is that they’re telling the truth.’ Maya Angelou.
Email catch up to Reina. I have been a bit slack so need to get this thing moving. But not to worry about the outcome, just let it be, it is this… stay in the moment, this is the present and that is all that matters in the big picture.
Reina replies. Read it out loud to your husband, be a story teller, it might help to find those areas where you have concerns, think about your characters, do you like them?
I had to get my husbands attention, a place where he was sitting and still with no choice but to listen. Well with men, there is only that one place, and somehow it just did not seem appropriate. So I read to my dog Washburn. As a thirteen-year-old Labrador with a puppy brain and recently diagnosed with severe arthritis, it is not easy for him to get up and walk away. I moved his trampoline bed with its bio-mag mattress beside the fire and woke him each time he snored with Bomazeal treats. Some issues jumped out at me, Washburn cruised and slept, and nudged my leg when he wanted his ear scratched.
Bruce Springsteen’s birthday coincided with Washburn’s big day out.
I played ‘The Boss’ on vinyl in kind regards and memories.
Washburn came home with a doggy bag.
Bomazeal, Rymadil and opiates (for severe pain) along with an appointment card for the next three Saturdays regarding follow up injections, and he may not improve until the final one, after that an appointment every six months to monitor progress. Tonight he is stiff and sore from the limb manipulation necessary for the x-ray poses, but I don’t think he minded that, anything for attention, that’s our Wash. He is hurting now so we give him a Bomazeal treat with his tux, ‘mmmm,’ he grunts, ‘mmmm, I need to use the bushes, now.’ He doesn’t quite make it, but that’s what shovels are for. He limps back into his kennel and we say goodnight, he is too tired to reply, it has been a big day.
I don’t suppose Bruce had quite the same experience, but the man that still sings ‘Born to run’ is only 61yrs old; in doggy years Wash is 91.
Life is a present occupation, a juggling act, between writing and everyday stuff.
Sometimes I spend my time writing stuff that is just that, stuff… it’s a break, that’s all.
‘I want to read you something,’ he says.
He begins, ‘Once there was a small boy…’ his voice has a gentle smoothness, it lulls her, she is not listening for the story but is beguiled by the sound of his voice, every now and then he asks her a question, she nods her head, sometimes she nods at inappropriate times, because that was not the answer to the question, and there is a flicker of exasperation on his face, but it doesn’t last and he resumes. She becomes sleepy, drifting on the ocean of his words, he asks again if she is listening and she shakes her head, still he continues, she wafts in the swell, he reads, she is floating face up, the sun is warm, like his voice, they become one, his voice her body, her breath is his, they breathe together, the ocean is everywhere all around, they are the ocean.
‘Well,’ he says, finally, ‘What do you think?’
Once there lived a small dog…
Their neighbours ask, does your husband write, is he a writer, what does he write, does it pay, where can we see his books, are they in the library, is he famous?
Once there lived a small dog…
‘I want to read you something,’ she says.
She begins, ‘Once there lived a small dog. His name was Maz, his tail was neither the full length tail that might have curled up over his back, nor was it a wiggly stump, but in between, like a half smoked cigarette…’
Her husband snores and wakes himself. She is gazing out the window, the ash from his cigarette drops on to the duvet; he hears a dog bark, a boy laughing, the neighbour’s car in the driveway. He hears her scream.