Robert Louis Stevenson was quoted as saying ‘Don’t judge each day by the harvest you reap but by the seeds you plant.’
At the moment, I am planting lots of seeds, but when I look at my fields, the crops seem like poor specimens – undernourished and not able to stand tall against strong winds.
I am in the middle of my novel, and this is the bit that I find hard. When something is hard, I don’t want to do it.
Last week, Renée kindly gave me the week off. I had a funeral as well as other things that needed my attention. I thought the break would do me good. Not so.
This week is even harder. I have had to glue my bum to the seat. I have had to wrestle every word, sentence and page and am still not finished. Even writing this journal entry. I suspect myself of procrastinating, again.
Half of me wants to find the easy way out. But, another part of me yearns for original and unique. I suppose it serves me right too. Up until this point, the pages were just flowing. Easy even. People have been asking how is the writing. Fantastic. Loving it. No one has asked this week.
Writing, I now see as a relationship. I was happy when everything was running smoothly, but now we’re being tested. For better or for worse.
So, I have to go back to the drawing board. Put in the effort and trust that I’m not just a fair-weather girl.
Must go. I have writing to do!