Learning new tricks (and old ones)

This last month has been such a rollercoaster ride but I’m loving it. I’ve had to learn to be self-disciplined (I’m 46 and have never felt the need for it until now). I’ve learnt to say no to people when they want me to do something (something I should have mastered years ago) and that self-doubt is a thing to embrace.

Rollercoaster

© Jimmy Lopes | Jacquie finds the writing programme is like a rollercoaster ride.

Each week I send my pages to Renée (my mentor) for critiquing and each week she sends me back some positive feedback, and then writing that has red marks all over it. The red marks are not expressions about how wonderful my writing is but points to address. Every week she’s been right.

She is urging me to go deeper, more detail, show me don’t tell me. The ‘show don’t tell’ is a writing technique that has been around for a while, and one that I thought I had mastered a few years ago. On closer inspection of my writing I see that this is not the case. Learning something and remembering to use it all the time are two separate things.

I also thought that the story was not about me. The characters are different, the things they do are so removed from me but it actually comes down to universal truths. If I had to sum up my story, I would say it’s about authenticity and loss. The main protagonist loses herself in grief and isolates herself in an obsessive compulsive disorder. Even though the characters are different from the ones in my life, I share with them: grief, shame, and hope.

For me to write well, I really have to take myself to those places. It’s not nice but necessary. The lovely gift is that it’s also quite cathartic.

The tapestry of life still unravels around me. If I’m honest, I would rather be writing than doing all the other things that are expected of me, but that is not how it works. I am learning balance. I know this week I will struggle to find any time to write but this course means I will.

I am in awe of people that have written books without a mentor because after only one month I am so grateful to Renée who is my mentor and don’t want to ever let her go.

If you can, run out and find one!

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